If I said that I’m constantly trying to change my way of thinking, just so my heart can be in the position; to truly be everything it needs to be. Would everyone think that sounds a bit dramatic, or that my kind of thinking is a bit over the top? My heart will never be perfect, but whenever my soul gets moved; the positioning of my heart, feels absolutely perfect. Sure, my mind might be down with O.C.D; but God’s love, is what changed my heart!
The obsessive-compulsive disorder, is the name that becomes the sticky side of this label; I know a name, that covers labels. So no one should ever try to put me in a box. Slap a label on my heart, thinking they have my heart figured out. I may be obsessive, with trying to have a clean heart; nothing I do, will ever be compulsive. I’m just trying to get to the heart of what matters; keeping my heart keenly focused, on God’s love. I admit, I do have an irresistible urge; to make sure that my heart is absolutely right, with God!
How can anyone ever truly call this a disorder? Is it because I’m just not willing to compromise my heart, or accept a lower standard? Call it what you will, I will allow my heart to be shifted daily; until it’s forever lined up with the truth. This not a state of mind factor, but absolutely a state of heart; positioning. Yes, I absolutely do have an uncontrollable desire to fix; the things that are just not right, within my heart. For me, it’s never been about getting it perfect; but about adjusting my thinking. God will do the rest, with His love!
My heart is Constant, constantly seeking and searching; for ways to improve. Day after day I’ve come to realize, that it’s God’s love; that truly compels my heart. My heart is flexible enough to give all, but all the pressure in the world; will never cause me to change my belief system. I will forever be a square peg; no matter how much others try, my heart will never fit into a round hole. Being Over the top will never be obsessive, when it’s the repositioning that truly Counts. This can be seen as normal, when we truly learn that this is not about perfection. But how to love, with just the little Details; we so often overlook!