Tag: Spiritual

Guilty!

If loving You, makes my heart guilty of needing Your love? Then I will gladly, confess my needy ways; in a court of public opinion. If wanting to love You, until my last breath has gone? Makes me guilty, wanting to wait to then… to exhale. I cannot tell the lie, have my soul deny the undeniable truth; breathless, how I choose to forever live. The plain and simple truth, I have already embraced the fact. Needing Your love, will never be the apology; uttered from within these unwavering lips. Your love moves, underneath my every breath. So much so, that my actions have made this heart of mine guilty. Confession of this love, not do to the want; but every much the need. If, you believe you must. Go ahead, question my motives, interrogate what this love is truly worth; everything. Throw the book at my heart, the word; written deep within my soul. You can put my heart, into a predetermined boxes; my soul won’t be swayed. For this I will take the stand, stand out; what my heart will do. I will stand up, vigorously defend this love. Words, they can never slander my resolve. Smears, only bother a heart worried; about a meaningless reputation. I’m not guilty, for aiding and abetting. It’s in-bedded within, the love is not hidden; it’s boldly on display. This is not a crime, but I can’t deny the passion!

My heart, will never rescind the love. You can never lock away a heart, when the love breaks every chain. A so called trial, is just a test… of character. A soul sitting speechless in the stillness, captured by love. But, if the truth ever gets you twisted. Guilty in your eyes, doesn’t change the freedom; I have found within. I plead guilty, to be a heart captivated. I don’t fear, being found guilty of loving deeply. For, when it’s all said and done; works and deeds can be judged. But no one, can truly judge the heart. A shackled mind, means a heart still bound; not willing to confess, to a soul conviction. A heart can never say, the love is free indeed. If the love, is always hidden. For a soul, to live deep in love; the heart has to first make the choice, to be unapologetic. True Love, doesn’t need a twisting of the arm; the begging, or the pleading. So yes, if loving You makes me guilty, of needing Your love? I gladly confess, that I am he. Guilty by association, Your love, My heart; what this will forever be!

WCR

Song Inspired; Run to You!

Much, that others don’t see; I know, You see it all. The good, the bad; the ugly within my own heart. But, whenever I run to You; Your love always takes the time, to listen to my heart. In You, how I find my peace. A place where You would always meet me, the place where searching; meant always finding, my greatest joy. In a silent river, even on a not so sure riverbank. When it was the heart of a scared little boy, it was You; the one that ran to me. Who knew, just You; that I would get to this place, still needing You as my anchor. Your love is always so strong, it held on to my heart; when the nights became a raging sea. A river running into a wide open ocean, an ocean becoming the rising calm. Drowning, never became the problem; breathless, the place my soul needed to get to. Here, still needing You. Now, the need for You more than ever. Forever, knowing that tomorrow; the need will be even greater!

For years, I played the part; someone always in control. But I know now, it first started with the surrender. Giving all of me, the needing to let go. So my heart could find how, to arrive at this predestined place. Whenever I felt alone, You were always there; hovering, over every breath. You held me in your arms, when I needed to be close to your heart; to keep my heart safe from harm. You stayed, not just because I needed You; but because You, never stopped wanting me. Every day, the coming home. Turning up… was the key, to always see Your love waiting; never wanting to leave. There’s nobody, that will ever care as much for me; the same way You do. What’s the true sense, trying hard to find dreams. If not finding You there… in the midst; for every shared moment? I need You Here, to wipe away the tears. I need You Now, to kiss away any lingering fear. I need You Forever, so I can always; Run to You!

What if I held it forever, would my heart still be able to breathe? What if a tidal wave of emotions, made my heart feel so overwhelmed? Would the air in my lungs, be enough to sustain my soul? What if I tried, to gaze forever into your heart? Would a mere glimpse, be the endless shimmer to stop my heart; become a breathless moment? What if, the rhythm of my heart was erratic, would anyone truly be able to tell that it’s Your love; that steadies heartbeat? Tell me, what if; I stopped holding my breath? How would my soul, know how to truly breathe?

This song inspired, was released in 1987, and was part of the bodyguard soundtrack and movie; with Whitney Houston, and Kevin Costner. August 9, would have been her birthday day. From her first album released in the 80’s, you can see that God gave her an incredible gift. But unfortunately, her life is also a perfect example. To show that if we don’t truly guard our heart, we can end up straying down a darkened path. The light of God’s love hovers, but it’s for us to NOT; let the darkness eclipse, the enlightened way!

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First Love!

Still, always, forever; my first love, that will never change. Hell, death has no hold. Your love called to my heart, and my soul ran out of my grave cloths. Your love is still the anchor, my soul securely tethered to. Your love did what no other would, fought to show that my heart had worth. You won my heart, You have my soul. Your love is my song, every lyric, every verse; it makes my heart sing. Your heart is the light, shines like a lighthouse. It’s what guides my soul, through the darkest nights. It’s my strong tower, the only fortress my heart has ever known; a refuge in the storm. My greatest joy, what it’s always been. Lover, oh my soul; still yearn to know Your heart. Heart to heart, that’s the encounter; for my soul to taste the sweetest love. Your love is the fire, the flame upon my heart. The love still burns deep, my soul is forever set ablaze. The beautiful exchange, so beautiful a transformation; what You’ve made out of my soul. Breathless, what You’ve made my heart… become. My heart truly adores You, every breath I have… it’s yours. Nobody else, will ever get me, get this; My First Love, it’s You… Abba!

When I talk about first love, for me that’s literal. I grow up, without knowing a true earthly father’s love. Even though, I was an only child; I never had a close loving relationship with my mother ether. I was the first born for my father, but he didn’t embrace the daddy role. My mother had left me in the Caribbean at about age four, to build a new life for us in another country. Off and on, I was able to visit my father. At age six, he put me on a plane; never to inquire about me again. For the next twenty years, we only had one encounter. When I was sixteen, my mother planned a trip to the Caribbean. When I was reunited with my mother, and because she was a single mother; she enrolled me in a boarding school/home. I lived there, from age six to ten. Even though, we could go visit on the weekends; my mother didn’t drive. So therefore, I didn’t always get the chance, for the change of scenery. Fast forward to being married, I wanted my father to know his grandkids. I heard he was in the U.S visiting, so I took my eight year old son at the time on a plane; to go meet his granddad. Eventually, he also got a chance to me the entire family. He’s now in his seventies, with failing health. And the one child, he hesitated to lay claim to, is the only one he has a relationship with now; to help defray some of the health cost!

Maybe, that helped drive my heart; deep into an introverted silent river, where my heart spent many years. My heart, could have gone down so many paths. But God, His love hovered; stayed with me there, embracing my soul in the stillness. Then took my heart out of the river, and placed it in an ocean; encompassed my soul with His love. So I can now tell you, why I know deeply. The love that glistens profoundly, upon the river of my soul. Predestined, when He set the stage, for a true love encounter. He will always be there for you, every step of the way. Just like you, I can share a thousand stories; things we encounter along the journey. My life isn’t special, it’s the love within; that changed the meaning. I said that, to say this. Knowing God’s love first, what made it possible for my heart; to know a better relationship. I wasn’t planning to share all this, but felt I needed to explain the why; First Love? My friends, let me ask you this? What brings your heart, the greatest joy? What do you know, you can always hold on to; when your soul, is in the middle of a hurricane? When the water just won’t recede, where do you go for refuge? But most importantly, in a time such as this; what’s your, First Love?

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Words!

People sometimes forget, how Powerful Words can be; Written, or Verbal. Words have the true ability, to inspire a heart to Achieve greatness, or forever Agonize the soul, into Everlasting defeat. Kind Words can Motivate, give you real Hope; especially when you don’t feel you have any. Unkind words, can take deep Root; until a soul is barely surviving, from a heart lacking the will to Thrive. Words, they have the ability to Paralyze, with so much fear. Some words, can absolutely Crush the Spirit, leaving a heart Broken for years. Words, we have so many to choose from. Use the Power within words, to Speak life, build up self worth; in you, and those around you. Choose words that truly Inspire, Encourage, give Hope; instill Peace, bring Joy. Let your heart be True, the love within be Faithful; Espouse truth, within… Words!

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Knowing, Lost!

Where would I be, how would my heart ever know love? How could my soul truly know, there would ever be a forever; if not for You? Lost! What would have become of my heart. I would easily be lost, within such a vast forest, if not for one tree; Life. You can’t know where it starts, without first knowing to what your heart is rooted? Que sera, sera; “whatever will be, will be.” But for me, that will never ever do. Don’t want to be a heart, like a ship lost within the darkness. In the Here, and the Now; where you find a heart connection; for there to be two souls forever connected. Thank You, for knowing me, for wanting me; for loving on my heart. When no one else cared, You’ve always been there. Within my silent river, You were the calm; as my soul slipped deeper in an endless drowning. You know my name, You know my heart; at hello, You surely had my soul. Why, I don’t wince. When the day creeps up, trying to scare me with the unknown. Your presence hovers, underneath every breath. Your love, what became the air, for a heart learning how to truly breathe. A soul beginning to know, I’m living through You. Your heart, what my soul gets to feast on. Your love, it’s my daily bread. What’s a heart to do, when being lost; is such a good place to be? What can a man say, when he knows lost; is heard as a song in the night. Even when, an illness came to blindside my heart. My faith in You, where my hope is always found. A heart never lost, never alone in the midst, of whatever I face. I get lost, trying to find words. Here I am, Now; Forever. In a place, where my heart is still Knowing, Lost… without You!

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My Alabaster!

On to Your heart, my love, let my soul pour it out. Wash Your heart, with every drop the love… inside. I’m not ashamed, to break down. This is how, you raised up my heart… to be. Forever humbled, knowing the true breadth of Your love. I know Your name, but Your heart; what’s been so many decades of my chase. You breathed on me, yes; Your love breathes in me. Breathless, don’t let my heart know anything else. Your heart, still my first love; forever, and a day. Completely I’m Yours, complete; when You made my love Yours. You have my heart, every day; it will be the surrendered. Take my soul, at your heart the forever be; the surrender, of my every breath. I don’t worry, when the day cast my shadows. Your love, always there to fight for me; with Your perfect love. Your love is, the sweet fragrance; the aroma within my incense. The true essence, that emanates from within my Alabaster. Receive it, I want to give it all; my love, poured out only… onto Your heart!

So many, seek wealth; yet never willing to be, a heart on display. Show that Your love is the only thing, of true value. For a soul to forever have, and hold so dear. To be an offering, the true texture of a soul. To be a heart deeply touched, transformed by the purest kind of love. A heart forever translucent, through the light of a crimson love. The love now the outpouring, like water. Changing a once silent river, no longer to be… just bottled up emotions. This love is how I fought what I battled, by not letting anyone else; label what a heart is truly worth. A box, what so many have tried to put my heart. What they failed to see, the hand on my life. A heart being molded, to be a scented Alabaster. A love, to fill every void. Take the place, for whatever was seemed missing. A love affirmed, as my only foundation. Why this story, will never be about a made man; but a heart made, by a love so divine. Here I stand, but this my soul will forever be; grateful. Such an expensive price, for my Alabaster heart. A soul loving the freedom, to be a jar of clay; gracefully broken, at the foot of Your heart!

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Here, Now; Forever!

In this moment, in every tomorrow; in our forevermore, right Here, where my heart wants to be. In the presence, right next to Your heart. To know the embrace, to know when every breath moves. To feel every time, when the love brushes so gently; up against my soul. Crimson love, what’s in every heartfelt move closer. To know deeply loved, with every captivated gaze. Take my soul back, to the very moment the love for me started. When Love, became this amazing undying word. That’s Now, and Forever; etched within the crevices of my soul. I’m not Here, looking for anything; not Here, trying to reap the endless blessing. To You, heart and soul; what I’m Here to surrender. I just want to give back to You, the love lavished upon my heart. Everything I need, in You I have it all. Your love is everything, my heart will ever need. Right Here, right Now; sit Forever, at the foot of Your heart. Don’t let my heart breathe, Breathless is the place; where I will find Your heart, with more love than I deserve!

My heart, has gone through the motions; desperately trying to reach this place. Where there can be the release, all the pent up emotions. Emotional, the place where my heart can’t evade the love. A soul that can’t help but to tell You; what Your love is truly worth, Everything. Stuff, will never be enough to replace; what my heart has been put on the earth to find. Arriving Here, being close to Your heart. My soul knows it’s You, that can complete my heart. Your love, more than just a touch; deeper than just a passing feeling. I know what Your love can do, I can always find You Here. My heart will press into You, pour out the bottled up emotion. A silent river, what once ran through my heart; but then an overwhelming love, capsized the silence. When the day, comes to beat against my chest. Your love is there, waiting to shield my heart. When the darkness comes, trying to hide Your heart. Knowing Your love is close, how my soul learned to never lose sight; Your love has me by the heart. When the tears fall, overwhelmed becomes the stream; flowing into an ocean, love what bears the name!

Even though the day, races ahead of my heart; trying to become the distraction. Finding You in every moment, the day is eclipsed by what will Forever be. You, Here; for me. Chasing after Your heart, what keeps the day at bay. My heart, has only one affection. Forever devoted, what my soul needs You to know. Here, being in this place; that’s the one and only need. Now, in this very moment; Forever, No other love will do. My heart is not Here, because of obligation. Now, and Forever; it’s my true desire. There’s no living, no breathing… without You. Gracefully, the love has been waiting; faithfully, my heart will always meet You there. Now, that my heart has found the place; where Your love has waiting, for my soul to find. Caught up in Your rapture, a soul deep into the love. This place, where Your love conquers fear; and my joy is in You. This place, where the unknown; is just me knowing You. The place, where I know You’re enough; and my heart is full. I don’t need anything else; nothing else, but You. My heart, will never leave this place; where my soul is saying absolutely nothing. Knowing how to live in the silence, that’s where the love will find… an open heart; for You to have every breath. What words can’t say, speechless; how I bare my soul. Here, Now; Forever!

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What Can I Do?

Being quiet, doesn’t mean my heart don’t have a voice. Sometimes, my soul just can’t help being speechless. Being still, doesn’t mean a heart not forever moved, being alone in Your presence. Being lost for words, doesn’t mean You don’t hear what my soul has to say; underneath every breath. How can my heart not soar to new heights, when You are the wind; that can take a soul, beyond the stars? With Your love in me, my soul should truly know no bounds. How can my heart, not want to know the true length, and the breadth of Your love? When at hello, You already had my soul… breathless? I know a little bit of this, know a little bit of that; but nothing will never compare, to knowing You as my everything. How can I truly fathom the depth of Your heart, when Your love is so deep? Just trying to get there, my heart and soul can’t seem to stop drowning. How do You do, what You do; handle me so gracefully? What can I give You, when giving of my heart; is just the start? What can I say, when my words are not even enough; to express what my heart, is desperately trying to articulate? What can I do, to repay a love that’s worth so much; when I have nothing but a heart, validated by a price only You can pay? What can I bring, when You’re the one that bring a bottle, to our every encounter? Bottled up emotions, how You found me. But now, in a bottle You catch every falling tears; from a heart being, so profoundly moved. What Can I Do, what can I truly say; when Your love, is what eclipse it all!

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The Capture!

Can I paint you a picture, can my heart draw a portrait… with words. What my heart gets to express, what will be revealed; The Capture, within a heart. It’s been said, it takes twenty one days to form a habit. But this picture, was centuries in the making; before breath was even part of the picture. But, when life was breathed upon; instantly, my heart was captured within the masterpiece. Then slowly, and clear; the imagery is realized. So vivid a picture, what you will see start to take form. Can you yet see, it’s a picture to be treasured, a true work of art. What’s to be admired, the heart of the one; who imagined such an artistic creation. The majestic creation of love, that’s where the focus should be placed. Within the right light, with the perfect reflection; how the shimmer glows, upon the canvas. Even if you see flaws, even if seen through a tainted lens. The design, truly nothing less than perfection!

Picture this, not even the Mona Lisa’s beauty, could ever compare. Nor could Michael Angelo, capture the essence… within. Let me paint some more, just so you can; live this experience with me… stroke by stroke. I need your heart to see, what I’m truly trying to convey. But, before I continue to paint the picture; let me sketch out the parameters. You have to see beyond what’s on the surface, to understand the true breadth. Are you starting to see, the picture I’m trying to paint? A picture is a thousand words, but this picture can never be truly captured; within my limited words. This picture reveals the truth, to what my heart cannot hide. A symbol of hope, it creates. But even more than that, may it truly resonate; as, a true picture of Love. You might wonder; “what’s love got to do with it?” But that’s just it, love is at the very center… of this capture!

Perhaps, I need to break it down some more. Left me frame it, package it with this. Love is the true essence, to what forever moves the heart. Essentially, love is the very thing; that inspired creativity. Love is truly poised, and the amazingness so stunning; seen through the heart… of the creator. A picture, in the picture; the beauty exchange, what makes it a true wonder. When, you let your heart be a canvas; brush your soul up against a love, unveiled becomes the true beauty. So, are ready; to buy into a love like this? Hang this picture of love, above your heart. Hang it in plain sight, for all to see; and never, let it hang in the balance. Let the picture, moves you to tears… every time. I can paint the picture of love, but the question is; can you see yourself, in such an awesome picture? As for me, and my heart; what’s in the picture, has been settled. Yes, “it is finished!” The Capture, of a soul… in love!

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The Island!

Here I stand, but never alone. What I see, love times three. But, that wasn’t always so. I was born fighter, learned early how to become a survivor. There was a battle, that was waged for my soul. The love, my heart learned to wield; what broke down all the barriers. My heart charted a course, but unbeknownst to my soul; I wasn’t the captain of the destiny. Everyday, my heart set out; trying to find the perfect hideaway. A soul living, but a heart feeling like a castaway. Bankrupt was the heading, shipwrecked the ultimate destination. A true heart to heart encounter, will never produce a soul forever changed; if you’re still lost in the dark. Sometimes, you have to be alone; to know when you’re no longer lost. My heart was never once stranded, living in an isolated place; of my own choosing. The set sail daily, to conquer the unknown. Many days, it was a heart getting through… an introverted see. No man is an island, but therein; a boy found the escape, to my deserted island. Alone, with my vivid imagination; but underneath the quiet, a friend hovered. My island, the place I found my heart… surrounded; by an ocean… of love!

The calm, within every gentle whisper. Underneath every breath, in the deep silence; there was a river… flowing. On a desert island, a heart can feel absolutely parched; a soul with a constant thirst. In the silence a heart wondering, am I still heard? In the void, would I lose my voice? My heart, didn’t wash up… on the shore. My soul was washed, knowing for sure… what is saved. Your love, forever the island; in the middle of my soul. Chasing after the wind, is meaningless. Chasing after Your heart, where the true meaning of love began. This one tree, the palm, the branches; a heart living within the divine, what leaves a soul covered. My heart finding a shelter, to embrace… every wave of emotion. Into the sunset, into the depth you see a new horizon. Into Your heart, where you find heaven. Alone in the presence, love all around; moving breathlessly through the soul. Deep into the sand, times spent to truly understand; the footprint in the sand!

Oh fire… would, you forever burn; if I touched You so deeply. The peace I have found, the truth I hold dear. It’s love and favor, for a thousand lifetimes. Favor goes before me, the love shines upon me, the reign is forever, and the breadth… overwhelms me. A heart found by grace, a soul rescued by such a graceful heart; with a love so gracious. A heart, that has captured my gaze. A soul no longer worried, being capsized by any more doubts. A heart never contented, to let the mindset be island time. When the days we live in, are borrowed time. Substantive living, when patient grounds the heart; and love the true virtue. The island, where I didn’t need anything; but love on the divine my soul sees. When my heart needs to see the love, I don’t have to go out to sea; just a look within, where it will always be. The island, within my breathless sea… of love. Now I’m living out my days, loving on every tomorrow; with my island girl, by my side!

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